Thursday 25 November 2010
A sad love song


Sunday 19 September 2010
updates :d
hello :d

such in ages i blog. too sad. busy. had a bad ever results for June results. i hoped i can do better this last chance. God bless me.

this MOST sad was. MY uncle passed away. just a phone call, i didn't get to see him :(. my parents were busily so they couldn't able to attend my uncle's funeral buried ceremony, too sad. but they going back during this December. God takes away him from us. UNCLE i miss you. :(

well. i have a awesome daddy. xp. so yeah. i love you daddy and mum. xp, will update again.

exam is around the corner. i believed i can do. 6'o' for November.
PLEASE BE NICE TO ME ALL THE COMING PAPER. :D





Friday 13 August 2010
I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out. And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart. And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you. But those words may forever stay in my heart-locked inside. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know.

" It's not his friendship I miss, it's him. The very person of him. His presence. I want his shadow on my wall, I want the smell of him. I can't eat without him, I can't do business, I can't read a book without wanting his opinion, I can't hear a song without wanting to sing it to him. It's like all the life and warmth and color has bled out of the world when he is not with me. I am not missing my friend, I am missing my eyes, I can't see without him. Without him, I am a blind woman."

i miss him so much :(



Sunday 1 August 2010
xp

:D

hmm. wasn't posting yesterday, pretty tired and sick :( but im feeling okay now.sick season is tough time, keep cough and sneeze isnt really good habits. so dont fall into sick is a good health. WEN, this is for you. dont always drink cold water yeah.

first off, yesterday had my last paper, history, 8 to 9am. *grins*, was standing at the bench, and teachers asked me whether want to go ICC or not, first, amy not yet come so i waited amy to come. since there's a chance to go, just go. HAHA, amy agreed too! so here we went.
after that, headed off to school by the time 11.30am, we had to finish our DRUGS projects, so we stayed back till 2pm.

A BIG THANK YOU TEACHER JEREMY for letting us(wen and I) the pen-drive, if not we still struggling seek for pen-drive? without that, we couldnt able to print out, i spoke more than 10times in front of wen, she probably think im a insane person, xp. right, wen? :D

thats all.

im here to express my love to him ♥

It is very important for me to express to you how much you really mean to me. I wish I could do this in person while holding you in my arms and gazing into your eyes. But since we are physically separated by miles of emptiness, this expression must come in the form of letters such as this.

Dear, I know it is difficult for you, as it is for me, to be separated for so long. Life seems to be full of trials of this type which test our inner strength, and more importantly, our devotion and love for one another. After all, it is said that "True Love" is boundless and immeasurable and overcomes all forms of adversity. In truth, if it is genuine, it will grow stronger with each assault upon its existence.

Dear, our love has been assaulted many times, and I am convinced that it is true because the longer I am away from you, the greater is my yearning to be with you again. You are my Charming Prince, and I am your devoted Princess. I cherish any thought of you, prize any memory of you that rises from the depths of my mind, and live for the day when our physical separation will no longer be.

Until that moment arrives, I send to you across the miles, my tender love, my warm embrace, and my most passionate kiss.

Love always,


Saturday 31 July 2010
:( sick
hello world. im not feeling so well today, ulcers, fever, coughing, sneezing :(, how bad is that, finally, come to sick, panadol will cure me :S, i having my history paper 1 later on, i abandoned my chores, study and come here to blog, uh? if my mum know it, i will be scold by her, :D.

well, i met joanne just now. she looks slim now, really!, whereas i felt im really FAT :( i need to lose tons of weight. so many nice foods anywhere.

i'm speechless now. im going to off to study, probably later, :D


Tuesday 27 July 2010
random :D
I'm not going to deny that even though I usually know I deserve it, or I realize it's coming to me, I sometimes try to maneuver my way out of a spanking. It's really senseless because I'm not that sly and it's pretty painfully obvious. It's just that sometimes it really, really hurts, and it's because he wants to get his point across- I get that. In the heat of the moment though, I always catch myself wanting to yell "But you just don't understand how bad it hurts!"

Except that he does.


Once I felt like I had gotten all of my questions out, I started saying "but it's still not the..." and he finished with: "same, I know." Because it's not... I'm not judging anyone who incorporates domestic discipline into their lives without having a relationship with one another, but I can't imagine that it would feel the same, at least for me. Part of what hurts so badly about being punished is that I know the reason I'm being punished is because I either hurt Him, or he's disappointed in me. It's exclusive to him.


He does realize that, obviously, but he also feels he gained some insight, which is what he wanted more of anyway. To this day, I still can't picture him being in that role, but I can appreciate the genuineness of wanting to learn what's going on in my head when I take a trip over his knee. He's never burned my bottom quite like he received it though, and for that, I'm pretty grateful.



Monday 26 July 2010
:D
hello world. :D

currently having qualified. so dont have much to update blog. uh. just say my exam perplexing. i stayed up late for my exam, but i always ask my myself why i don't study for umpteenth time? just only when there's is exam :(. how bad. i don't think i'm did well for this qualified. :(. sorry teachers!. lets move on, still left with maths paper 2, combined science 1, commerce 1, and history 1, last paper will be history. :). i loathe paper 1, i always flunk, and i never pass for that, people could always do well in paper 1. yet me. dont have to think it. sadly.

JOANNE finally back, we are going out soon, :D.

till here, will be update after 31st July. :D, my favorite month is going to end, august is coming. wehee. :D <3>











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